Leaving NH

Wow...summer has come to an end. Today was my last full day in New Hampshire. I had such a great summer & a great time at my job, living w/ the Brackett's, spending time w/ Brandon's family, hiking, biking, walking, growing in my faith & just having fun doing whatever. I am really sad about leaving. Brandon & I went to BCA to see the kids. They were so excited to see me!!!! I was a little surprised & happy about their reaction to seeing me. I got tons of hugs & got wet! They wanted to show off all their cool moves & jumps in the pool. I threw them in the water. We stayed for like 1/2hr. I gave Taylor & Bailey each something I picked up for them--something special. They were my special gals this summer. One of the kids asked me if I was coming back next summer...I said I didn't know. [It is on my mind though.] I was happy& sad as we pulled away. Sad to say 'bye', but happy that I had such a good summer & a good reaction from the kids when they saw me. It felt sooooo good!! Al & Kim have been so good to me this summer! I have grown very fond of them. I have had a great opportunity to get to know them & they are such wonderful people! I will miss living here.

Packing has been an on & off thing today. I don't have a lot & I'm about 1/2 way done. Not too bad. I will leave here tomorrow morning for NY...possibly alone. Brandon may not be able to come w/ me because he needs to finalize his loan stuff. There are some complications that (I'm not going to get into) hinder Brandon from going w/ me. So, I can almost assume that I will be going to NY & PA (w/ my family for vacation) w/out Brandon...alone. I am really sad, but understanding about this. Brandon & I both understand that there has to be compromise & neither should have to compromise more than the other! If things do not get worked out...Brandon would be compromising more in this scenerio & that is not fair. Believe me, I am praying that all goes well & everything falls into place. I don't want to drive back to NY (5.5-6hrs) alone & go to PA w/ my family w/out him. I also understand that there is a high possibility of this happening. We would only be apart for 2days total...doesn't sound like much, huh?! I just want Brandon to come w/ me...I could really use his support being w/ my family (things are not that great right now), I want to spend time w/ him, & I would like him to spend time w/ my family (he is a big part of my life & so is my own family). However, it is not fair for me to be self-ish in this matter & I want the best for us both--compromise. It may not be easy & we will both lose out somehow, but compromise is best.

Tonight I will pack more, then go to Amanda's, vacuum out my car w/ help from Taylor, go watch Brandon & Al play some tennis, then finish packing. It will be a long night & a long day tomorrow.

Well...until next time...bye ya'll!!

"Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand." -Isaiah 41:10